Goodbye. (Poem)

I believed you where what I wanted, needed and longed for
I believed you could be my everything
I believed you would one day open up and realize that I belonged to you
I believed we were meant to be
I believed WRONG.

All the thoughts
the dreams
the emotions
the poems
the feelings
the time
my time wasted
your time never really there.
my mind wondering
your mind focusing elsewhere

I believed you would be my everything.
I believed wrong.
I believed we could be together despite our different stages in life
I believed wrong.

Now I'm not sure if I believed any of it at all.
Not sure if I ever really cared as much as I thought.
Not sure if you ever really cared at all.

I am now saying goodbye.

To the memories of us.
You. Her. Me. Talking. Texting. Staring. Wondering.
LUSTING because it was never truly love.

I'm not saying I will ever forget but I will move on.
No regrets.

You went left.
I choose to stand in the middle and wait for your return but not anymore.
I'm going right.
And hopefully when we meet up again in the future my feelings will have evolved into LOVE for another.
LOVE so strong that I won't have to even wonder what it would have been like with you.

Goodbye Mr. CoCo.

♥
10.25.09