.Mrs.Complicated.

I don't know why I want this so much.
Don't know why it feels like a such a need.
To have someone to care.
To know someone is thinking of you.
To Love and be Loved back!
Why do I need this feeling to feel complete.
I hold onto every word hoping, wishing, wanting them to be true.
But all to many times they never were.
All too many times I grew angry.
And all too many times I was left alone.

And now. . .
After a year of hoping, wishing and wanting I decide to give up.
Stop caring.
Still wanting.
Stop dreaming.
Still thinking.
Stop giving.
Still hoping.

And you appear.
Now I'm back to square one.
Hoping, wishing, and wanting!
I do not want this feeling!
I do not need this right now!
I'm suppose to be focused!

And now.
I want this to be so much more than I know it is.

*sigh*