.you. [Part II]

I find it funny how things work out
I adopted this "i dont give a fuck" attitude months ago!
Because every time I began to get into my feelings flaws began to appear
He just wanted to fuck
He wanted to move to fast
He was controlling
He was. . .
Almost anything you could think of I have encountered in this past year.

And then. . .YOU come along
And trust and believe I tried HARD to find the flaws before they found me.
I asked everything
Said random things
Just to see what you would do or say
My friends keep telling me not to let those of the past hurt my future
But its hard.
So I settled for finding things to be mad about.
And that didn't go too well. . .
I should slap myself!

Truth be told I'm not sure where this is going
No lie, i would usually just say "fuck it"
I threw out every HINT possible!
And I thought you wanted the same thing I wanted but now. . .
I'm not too sure about that
Maybe you're scared like I am but I'm always up for a new challenge
My heart has so many cracks and bruises that one more won't really change anything.
If you hurt me. . .I will get over it
But when I say it feels different I do mean that
I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't
I just want the chance to show you that I'm not "her" or "HeR" or any of the other females you previously messed with
And if you don't want what I want then I want you to tell me that.
I'm not saying that I will stray because I'm content
At the same time I want to know where if anywhere this is going

I'm impatient.

I want you all to myself.
And if I can't have you then I would like to know that
Besides, theres no reason for either of us to be in the blind about things
Right?

Ok. :-)

Now. . .Time to study for my math final

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