And I [Part III] (Poem)

And I have never done this before
Never waited.
Never wanted to wait.
Never felt has if I should wait.

And I have never been put in this mood before
Never felt confused and happy all at once.
Never cared when they didn't care back.
Never smiled for no apparent reason. . .

And I may never get what I want from this
Never care any more than I do
Never be cared for at all
Never feel anything more than what I feel now

And I'm ok with that
Because they always leave
Because they can never be faithful
Because they care to much about the game

And I have learned that. . .
They always regret leaving me
They all eventually know they missed out
They will mature and look bad with sadden eyes

And I now know that. . .
I have to let my past go.
I have to be happy NOW
I have to look forward with my head held high

And I am currently smiling
And I will soon frown
And I will one day smile again

And I am strong
And I am willing
And I will one day Love again.
And I [may be] loved again. . .

Written on January 24, 2010