There are so many things going through my mind right now about HIM. And this is pissing me off because this isn't like me at all! And truthfully I don't really mind moving slow if I'm not the only one putting in effort and that's not the case. I'm starting to feel like he may just be holding on to me because he knows that he can. And THAT is not going to happen. I'm not saying I can just kick him to the curb because I do have feelings invested but at the same time I'm not going to set myself up.
The fact that he can indirectly tell me, after 3months, that he can't make time for me because he's "making moves" got me THINKING! And this thinking isn't good at all. One side: I'm just not use to being the center of attention; this is true but I have dealt with it before. On the other end: maybe I'm over-thinking as always. I don't care if both of these are true! I don't deal certain types of rejection well and this is one of those types. In my eyes, hes saying "you really dont matter" or "your just someone that's around"
Yes I am irritated and I will probably battle back & forth with my emotions but I'm deciding. . .
right here
right now
this is just another "experience" and it will probably past like all the other "experiences" i been through.
I seriously thought I was making positive upward changes with guys. . .FAIL.
I think I'll just let my emotions simmer. Maybe make some "moves" of my own and see how things go.
Not what I want but we all have to do things we don't want some times.
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